Sometimes, like other people who write as well, I get the urge to instantly put my words and thoughts down on paper without thinking which words and phrases would sound better; it’s an impulse that forces me to merely write directly from my heart. And mind. Or, as the phrase goes, shoot straight from the hip.
So here is something that I wrote in one of those few minutes where I hadn’t written anything for a very long time and I really needed to break that stretch. (Before going on to read this, please do not judge me after you do so; what I have put down in words is simply a product of my fantasies and vibrant imagination.)
Have you ever had a dream about the very last day of the Earth’s existence? (Many may refer to it as the Day of Judgment.) Yes, I have. It’s not scary: it’s just weird. You wake up feeling like a prophet, thinking you had a profound insight into the future.
“Wow, am I some sort of God-sent human who is seeing these futuristic images? Is God trying to send me a message? Am I some sort of ‘chosen one’?” I knew that that was crap. It couldn’t be true. But I previewed these thoughts through my head to see what it feels like even to pretend to be some magnificent, holy messenger. Or something of the sort.
And that’s just a glimpse of what my everyday life is like. Imaginative, idealistic, dreamy and delusional. Fortunately, I don’t let it grow to an extent where I start believing everything in my head and push myself to the verge of getting admitted into a psychiatric ward (although the idea doesn’t sound that boring, I must say… there you go again: me drifting off into my imagination).
I’m not sure what my purpose of telling all this is. I think I’ve always had this desire to tell people about myself. Some strange urge it is, but yes, I’ve always had a pleasure in telling people about my experiences, feelings and thoughts; in a way (one that is not boastful or conceited at all, I assure you), I have frequently thought of myself as a wise and insightful person, a little above those of his own age-group and whose words shall one day be quoted all over the world; and in thinking so, my desire to share what goes on in my mind becomes stronger, thinking I may inspire at least one person one day in achieving something they have wanted to do so in life, or help them through an issue they have been facing for a while.
A penny for your thoughts?